“Life is either a daring adventure or nothing. -Helen Keller”

Monday, January 2, 2017

2017 ; May it be a blessing good journey.

Hapy New Year.
2016 had flies real fast for me. Too busy to even realized and too many things on that year glad Allah had help me go through. Alhamdulillah finish my Master of Sc in Project Management. :D
Back to work since last Sept and been real busy but glad so far its better. Hope for more blessing from the almighty.

I wish to start the year with purely good intention, bless, ikhlas and more closer to the Almighty. Not chasing any duniawi things. Not dare to look at my age tho. I hope no one would ask that cray question, i'm not ready plus when u grew up and met with lots of people , your are so clear that feelings are the gift from the Almighty and it wont be gaining simply from anyone that cross path you.

I've met those who had an opposite characters from me, but there's kindness and humanity i gain from them.
I even met those who click in terms of chemistry and let them go.
I even met those who had been to the same place , been liking the same thing and been doing the things that i've been doing.
Even met those who have the same characters and same thinking but not hoping or wanting anything from them.
Human, fated and destiny is so unique . So let's meet up with those who want to cross path me in this 2017.

May Allah ease the journey. Amin.

Sunday, September 18, 2016

Fresh start . Helo September 2016

One year ago, my September was about starting my post grad study and this year i start my job again.
With different intention which is not fully for money, but keberkatan is what i'm seeking for.
It feels different, its not that hectic as before. Happy tu subjective but yea alhamdulillah its good to be back.

Still completing my thesis and a few more subject left on this final semester.
May Allah ease everything.
Its good to see people around seems like having a good life,
Its good to see bunch of familiar face,
Its good to see makcik tea lady pun still ada lagi,
Its good to see the same cleaner,
Yang stress dah tone down a little become more happy,
Yang sakit dah sembuh,
Yang single dan tak percaya kat institusi perkahwinan dah pun kahwin,
Those split out from us still have chance to see them again,
Fate sometimes fated you to meet those people again.
Bukan sekali, tapi berkali-kali
what's next tak sure lagi, short term goal is i need my snorkeling trip :D hehe

till then be good 2016.

Thursday, July 21, 2016


have u heard of Pilates? lebih kurang macam yoga tapi hardcore sket. 
For those yang malas nak jogging nak pegi gym try out pilates pose/ video kat youtube. 
You can burn ur raya food and build strength with either yoga or pilates or both.

Umur dah tak makin muda so its good to stretch out and build core inner muscle. I hate jogging cuz i'm not a good runner, prefer swimming sbb dia main breathing and relax tak payah nak paksa muscle kaki je . haha

Then bila try out yoga and pilates even without class, can feel body bit lighter, lebih strong, u sweat like crazy sbb posture dia tough2. even 10-15 minute pun dah best. effect dia mmg some pain in the muscle akan rasa sbb muscle x penah gune . so siapa yg malas try out this. :D

Tuesday, June 28, 2016

Last 10 nights of Ramadhan

Haritu cati shared during this last 10 days keep on sedekah everyday, recite Quran, pray and doa'. Even if we missed the night at least we had done all that insya Allah.

There's so many stories shared via social networking. This year i learnt that berkat, ikhlas, sedekah , relationship with Allah and parents sangat sangat penting. Berkat tu sangat penting in many aspect of our life. If there's something wrong dalam hidup ni we have to reflect back and look back what we had done to those around us and how's our relationship with Allah and parent.
Bahagia atau tak kita is actually based on that and based on what had we done in our life.
Did we turn down those people that came across to ask for help?
Did we turn down those who come from mintak sedekah?
Did we disobey Allah and hurt our parent?
If we did Allah will pay back the karma which makes our life in difficult not-so-hapy situation.
Scary kan? I think if we had kids or untuk diri sendiri teach ourself pasal berkat.
Ilmu tu perlu keberkatan, so dont do anything that might cause ketidak berkatnya. Sebab it will effect us masa kerja who knows. I read those in fb. scary kan. Cari redha dan berkat Allah tu penting cuz it will lead to happiness dan kelapangan hidup insya Allah.

Forget all those non-halal relationship goals. cuz those halal one written from Allah is indeed better.
When u getting older, i didnt wish for more luxurious things. I just want a little happiness, berkat, good relationship with parent and Allah, being the best khalifah, and not chasing duniawi much. Menjadi QS sedikit sebanyak had taught me a lot in life. Pasal human, pasal hati, pasal hidup, matang, berkat, relationship with people around, kindness and pain. Plus kebergantungan kepada Allah at my very lowest point. When i'm at verge i think i'm gonna drown cuz i'm physicall and mentally not afford to Allah is always there when i'm crying and asked for help. He gave me helps in the form of His gift which I always not expect to but u feel it with ur heart dan bersyukur tak terhingga. Takut nak masuk kerja balik, tapi kali ni seriously i'm gonna try to make it right by chasing the akhirat n find redha Allah in working and not to hurt anyone hopefully. I just need to breathe while working. Rabbi yassir wala tuassir rabbi tamim bi kheir.

Wednesday, June 22, 2016

To further master or work?

Some peeps have this in mind. Nak further tapi comfortable with the current job. Some might thnk of part time master too. Bagus sebenarnye having the thought of further study.
Last year when i started working permanent sbgai QS memang dah tanam dalam hati cukup setahun keje i'll persue my master. I dont care, masa tu sebenarnye sambung sebab nak lari bidang .

QS ni ok kalau dapat team, officemate and company yg ok. But u'll get overly attached with work loads and extreamly busy sampai nak hang out pun kena postponed or cancel, nak attend wedding kawan pun kena pikir banyak2 kali sebab busy dia sampai u dont know what's happening around ur social life. kesian kan. tanggung jawab. jihad pekerjaan hahaha . jihad la sangat.

Keje tak smpai setahun jangung kadang boss anggap kita dah 10 tahun keje , ntah macam2 benda berat yg kena pikir, smpai otak x mampu pikir, bahu rabak gila x mampu nak tanggung. stress dia sampai asyik nangis kat tuhan je mintak kekuatan. Kadang jantung laju je bedegup sebab deadline, nak bangun susah sbb terlalu stress body pun tekejut dan muscle smua tegang rasa macam batu besar hempap kat badan. serious. Ada satu time feel stress and anxiety smpai rasa mcm nak muntah. Gila masa tu xpenah jd tapi constantly rasa nak muntah. Rupanya stress.

By that time I already applied for Master in coursework kat local uni. either boss bagi atau tak i will apply one year unpaid leave. alhamdulillah Tuhan permudahkan, UM terima and boss pun bagi cuti.

kalau full time study cuma busy time one month before nak submit assignment and exam. Kalau x start thesis lagi. Pilih la uni yang betul with a good lecturer. Alhamdulillah I was granted with experienced lecturer. Setiap kelas dia best, flexible , dia ajar utk pikir secara critical and deep sebagai project manager. Mostly classmates kakak2 yang muda sebaya boleh kira sbb most of them still work or dah keje few years than gov bagi cuti gaji jalan.

what i've gain while furthering my master?
1. Friends. yang sincere compared to works.
2.Thinking and alot of thinking. Kadang keje kita repeat benda sama otak tak berpikir secara creative
3.I learn to appreciate human values. my human values died while working. jiwa boleh mati sebab orang sekeliling yg terlalu duniawi, selfish dan kapitalis
4. I want get away from negativity and get closer to inspiring people
5.Menjadi matang and belajar untuk tidak menjadi kejam
6.I once partiming and when i go to class i feel alive like a human, i have different world
7. I met new people of different company and background as classmates
8.I laugh more than i able to compared dengan keje.
9.I feel happy and tak rigidkan otak kat apa kerja yg kita penah buat
10. Master in Project Management is better than MBA in my thought cuz we learn on how to handle people and being a good leader.
11.I dont want to stop learning
12. I want to being human and keep trying to find positivity even if i get back to works.
13. I dont freaking care those selfish people in working world.
14.U'll appreciate ur student life more.
15. Ur degree is wide and general. Narrow it down, learn something out of your field to understand how others think. Its fun. I'm no longer see thing at QS eyes and mind. I can also see it from project manager point of view.
16.U'll read a lot of what other expert view. Kajian yg kita anggap simple tapi ada sumbangan dari diorg. nice
17. Put in ur heart gaining one level up in study bukan untuk show off but u'll being more humble bcz u able to put urself in other's shoes.
18.Senang nak plot lari bidang haha(my first intention tho haha)
19.sakit study dengan sakit kerja lain. sakit kerja, sakit gila. i kenot decribe the pain. it hurts , deep and it left me wounded scars.
20.Lecturer allow us to think openly and relate to real working experience. takde nak hafal2 notes. hafal points pahamkan and karang ur essay. Lagi out of the box lagi the marks is there. there's no rigid right and wrong answer. Ur opinion is ur opinion . Plus lecturer xskema.

Those who have thought on study, study la for knowledge. U'll gain a lot. U'll appreciate life, u'll meet many sincere people dan jiwa takkan mati. If i am going to work, i'm a bit wiser than previous. I want to happily work sebagai khalifah Allah and ignore those people yg try to benefit things from me. I dont compete with life, i just wish that Allah will grant me keikhlasan, little happiness and allow me to make people happy. Biar Tuhan je protect my heart from being hurt and i'm not opening up to stranger anymore. Macam tu lagi happy :D
Selagi ada interest untuk sambung selagi ada MyBrain sambung la. I salute kakak2 yg ada anak , umur dah 40+ jawatan dah bos kot tapi still ada rasa nak sambung.

2 more semester to end my study. May Allah ease everything. Rabbi yassir wala tuassir, rabbi tamim bi kheir.