Sunday .

hey hey i want to update things happen but there's a lot of important thing coming until i am sooooo lazy to update . Life is pretty hard as we dont know what is coming for us , what God had plan for us . Its really unpredictable but if it can be predict life is no funnnn.

I'm glad that after few months cracking my head and going through different emotions and stress finally we made it till the end . Love and life manage to finish . Now i'm preparing the report . Its good to have that kind of experience and through tht i manage to deal with different peoples espc AIESECers almost everyweek . Now what? i'm having a normal life back as Senior Executive in Red Ribbons . Here we know who support us the most and who help us the most . There are so many people supporting us even though we sometimes feel like we are alone . But that just emotion . It taught us to be more and more matured everyday . One things is that i know how to express all my emotion . But still i'm me , keep the anger and the geram inside until i'm shaking-ly hurt my heart . We,malay doesnt really speak directly if we have problems with people we dealt with bcz as for us we have to take care of their heart, they are human after all. and finally end up holding too much anger and pain inside . When have no more choice it will burst out in tears .

haha , i dont know how many times i cried bcz of the things around . I am not like this before, but i am sooooooo depress when i have to choose between my studies which is priority and my responsibility as an OCP . Got once inside the class, i feel very guilty to Dr.Wang Chen bcz i didnt even focus inside his class cuz my mind is somewhere thingking on the event preparation and my heart is stressing out about the site visit thingy tht not yet settle . But i always believe with one words " God wouldnt test u with the burden taht u couldnt bear " . If u about to ask why did u have to face all this thing and hardness , actually Allah trust u, He knows that u could face it and that is why He testing you with that .

Now i just go with flow , whatever happens and whatever things coming , study come first . I have take my responsibility early so that i can focus on my study . heeee and still keep on things to improve my self . Thanks people for giving me knew experience and pressure in life . It helps to develop me up to this level . XD