Priority & responsibility .

Hey hey , happy holidays ! dan selamat hari raya aidil adha to al muslims =))

Byebye october i dont know whether i've said goodbye to u but seriously its a heavy month, full of Karma between the good and the bad things . I posted a lot on self expression teach myself to sabar a lot , keep holding on even though i am not able and almost on top of my limit . When i start a new week i always cant wait to go back home for the weekend , cuz i think i can chill and try to motivate my self plus starting a new week with a new spirit . Seriously it works . I never be a super active girl . i just live a normal and peace life which only people who know me will know. I am not outstanding and outspoken? jauh panggang dari api duhh . But i tot my life was super bored last year . So i take a chance to develop . I am thankful cuz i develop but i never expect my self to hold on a lot of responsibility .

Am I not knowing how to handle my self? handle my time? entah lah . My enthusiastic feel got less day by day when i realize the changes that i have now . The positive one was good but yes its fair la good things wont come alone, it will come with a bad things . I lupa most of the important thing that i dont mean to forget -.-'
I got a rush life , fully busy life . I'm dividing my time and use almost all of it . Even i've been planning to slow down life as plan earlier , it not work . Sebab i have responsibility weh .

The most peak week is this week . I dont know how to explain, kalau jahat i wont pick up calls , reply any msg or email :p but no, i not like that . I get distracted easily , i always tak ikut plan bile people kacau me in the middle of my work . I will directly settle it down . sedangkan i am studying for my test -.-' . pastu sebok rasa down gila sebab x boleh nak ingat for test . why like that? when it come to this condition i was like ???? what the hack i am doing? why i dont have time for my self like before? study dgn tenang dan aman -.-' pretty sad weh . Tapi at the same time i cant ignore my responsibility @_@

what i read kat twitter time line yg hang li zue post reflect what is happening to me lately . My study pun mencabar jiwa dan raga . I love my course cuz i love with construction world and i love the job and task that i am doing now sebab something new and develop me well. Tapi to give 100% attention and focus to both of it ? i am not able weh i'm just a normal human , sometimes i do hope i can split my self utk bnyk part . arggggggggggggggggggh

i express my self a lot lately , and there;s always my bff who call me from USM to ask how's my life , am i ok and etc. so sweet kan? ehehehe
my aim next is targeting for my normal life back weh , go fins some peace and focus , forget about work and etc. Bukan nak complain or mengeluh but penat duhh, its not good to feel demotivated , cuma rasa penat and need energy booster to hype up everything. I once a JE yg bersemangat , and SE yg growing and widening my learning curve but now i'm facing almost the climax of everything . I hope it will end soon .

I need a holiday . Sekarang tengah holiday pun still working -.-' can i feel trauma opening facebook and reading email . statement melampau habis tu, sebab tu la i feel more peace and good with twitter , cuz its keep me away from work and benda yg membebankan and i can express my self better =))

starting from tmoro i want to be more semangat with the coming day .

p/s:i hope no one read this till the end hehe . it was just me and story of what i feel .The end .