first week of November choppin'

Dear diary, (this is ain't a diary) hehe
yup another week , what a week . i know i didnt finish the week yet but i think i have a lot ! since Monday . Taknak cakap cuz i cant recall all . its so bad i know .
at certain point of my life i feel like screaming . i hope to explain my life to people yg xpaham or maybe they dont know it , that i have my priority in study but i still give responsibility to task i've been doing . I always try to steal my time to do this and that . Bukan i cannot do but i only have two hands one brain and one body to move kan everything .Seriously when a sudden task coming bukan i cant do or saja dont wanna do , but look people i have testssss . my test is my future , my marks and so on . kalau my test senang kacang xpe la, ni susah mcm apa , i feel like crying and keep holding on during the revision . i cant get into any single thing , slowly absorbing . But with the little time i have la i still reply text , email and stuff . I can be cruel by ignoring everything kan , or selfish terus buat tak tau . being M.I.A . But i didnt . i still think of the responsibility n the need of replying people . cuz i hate when people no reply me . sebab i know how urgent it was .

Tapi tolong lah paham , i got tests n my assignmnts still pending dengan project IP yg kena cari extra maklumat . So my mood been so "NICE" sebab people put a lot of things to me . and jangan la have a high expectation cuz i'm still trying and i hate last minute thingy !

I want my old me back, yg sabar with things around , have a simple and secret life which people never realize my existance . i know i screwed my test but hope it wont happen anymore soon . T_T .No regret cuz i'm the one who choose things to trouble my self .

Like when i waiting for bus/taxi during rain and there's none of it lalu i feel like, why on earth i have to face all of this?
i'm the one who cari pasal . i'm the one cause the rush n stuff and i hope to get my peace life back soon after the semester end =) i didnt say i learn enough but i need to pity myself , and go back to why i'm here in UM to study . and i'm friggin' wanted to have that life back!

p/s:i just throw every pissed feels in twitter bcz that's the fastest and much more expressive way . hehe