i feel like cursing ya -.-

heyy stranger. . .
i need some air to breathe,
need my own space ,
need my peacefulness ,
need my free life back!
PLEASEeeeeeeeeeeee! i'm begging you.
kesian gile, i'm begging fr own space ? -.- mmg kesian. malang
to you : yes YOU!
who? You la :|
i thought tht we were frens,
but then...
what the heck kannnnnnnnnn arghhHhHh abcdefg!@#$%^&*
human patience have limit.
u've tried to cross the frenship border,
i've talk nicely, when i say i CANNOT, i mean it!
and mine hav reach to the peak. like going to explode dy...
problem : get rid frm stranger. what on earth tah..
but weyy this is the truth story.
masalah btul ckp dgn org xpaham bahse. ckp bhs ibunda kot.
wht language u wish me to speak to ya? bahasa Alien? and this is nt funny..
what do u expect?
my feeling is my feeling. and is always going to be mine.
until i'm meeting someone special whom i'll accept with an open heart,
idk who but Allah know tht someone.
AND
he WASN'T YOU.
he is someone tht will make me be the sweet me and the nice me and the positive me .
he is someone tht i'll like to see everyday,and comfort to be with.
someone tht i'll wait for, no matter how long..
i dun care how NICE you are.
if me want a nice guy then i can just choose among my good fren aite,
they are nice, kinda look good,
and i know them well, their family pun kot.
but they are a fren of mine and always remain fren, same like u.. just a FRIEND.
a friend is always a fren.
if u are special to me then i dont treat u as fren, i treat u special.
but YOU ARE NOT!
i have my own reason why i cant.
i CANT force my feeling, even to generate it fr u, ohh man,
pls do understand saye x boleh!
pls let me have my own happiness and space,
good tht u are brave, but it wasn't enough.
before this i'm living peacefully even single.
and i dont think i'm going to choose ya with whatever reason pun.
cuz i knw my heart better than u,
and i prefer being single than forcing myself .
yea, now like i'm begging fr my own peacefullnes, feel like crying.
but tough fee, it was just a small test fr u, and u cannot lose to urself.
may Allah bless me.


"Allah wouldnt give u the burden tht u cant bear..."

p/s:sorry . agak emo. but i'm nt feeling GOOD nw :'(
and i neva write this kind of post, it really wasn't so me..
but i cant stand anymore.just to let those hard burden in my head fade away.
sorry :(