ambition. what is yours ?

since primary school people ask u, wht is ur ambition?haha. ok mcm fav question la time tu, fav answer plak mcm "Doctor,lawyer"
mcm each year cita2 bertukar lol. dah name pun budak. :D

when growing up skit,msuk secondary school cita2 pun change.
dari seorg yg ade ambition to sorg yg xbercita2.
when people ask, minat bidang ape? nak jadi ape?
jawapn: errr? ermmm ntah xtau lagi. xde cita2 -.- smpai habis spm pun xde cite2 jgk.

this is because, we dont even know wht's the best fr us.
and tht time we depend fully on fate. result.
sbb mcm xde petunjuk nak ambik ape, masing2 keep on solat istikharah, finding the answer from Allah The Almighty.

then our heart seems like clearly nampak, wht we want in life. we know ady wht's our ambition.then we choose the way tht we think is the right way.
excited with our own ambition.
but we are just human with no power. how deep our intrest and love towards our own ambition still nt powerful enough to beat takdir Allah. again it was fated, what was right for us.
cuz we cant get everything tht we want. we must sacrifice to gain it.

:) and yeah, speaking from the truth.
the things tht happen to me.
yes,i do love and intrested with architecture. dont even care of the background from pure science student and no experience on technical drawing at all.
i no nothing :| .
yes it was hard when it comes to assignmnet yg related to technical drawing.
i do feel like a dumb . rase macam terlalu lembap utk understand the drawing . klau nak compare ngan budak teknik yg mmg buat one technical drawing dalam 1-2hours je. nice with no mistake. lucky them :)
but it doesnt makes me give up . bersemanagt nk redo lagi ade la.
out of brape belas project tah, i've redo belas2 projects gak.
i've sacrifice my Raya -.-' my day and night.everyday with the drawing,and A2 size drawing block,yes terlalu besar gedabak.but this is not main2 this is about our grade!our future. group A dapat akak yg mark our drawing strictly and yea one more thing she is super perfectionist!!! -.-'
klau group lain ktorg dah A. but with this akak we got B+ what akak?
and yea, kene la redo kan. dier pkai concept lagi bnyk redo baru naik grade kot.
sigh.

final sem 1, after dah purate smue dpt la A- .
graphic dpt B kot, subject lain ok la. layak utk design group.
but too risky. untuk mempertaruhkan my grade utk subject art yg we dont know how our art di nilai. klau subject lain perlu dibace and latihan to score.
but not art. u have to be artistic enough, gifted with idea yg the bomb , then they'll look ur hasil karya.
oh teringat satu assignmnt,"essay tht we must write to interprate artist drawings"
i've choose lukisan yg mcm jagung tu.
sumpah mengarut nk mampus karangan tu, but tah ape diorg judge,
i've got 8/10 . and i was like..whatt? essey bongek2 ni pun diorg bg 8. hahaha
so FUNNY.

so my love towards architecture perlu dikorbankan. yes i do love archi.smpai skrg pun.but we hav to choose! ur chances as asasi abians students kat um is too limited.archie for only 20students drpd 100+
and i've choose non design.
i have to consider a lot of things utk make this decision.
i want to enjoy my life as a fren,family and a human with a lot of needs! haha
being archie students mmg confirm xckup tido for berminggu2, and i cant imagine myself doing tht fr 5years and more -.- wooo
mase sem 1,me and roomate pnah terlelap atas lantai mase buat doodle project. pathetic gile. tapi tu blom ckup pathetic! mase Ramadhan, ktorg pnah stay up fr the whole night and tido after subuh then bgun pkul 10 pagi sbb class drawing pkul 10pagi. sweet moment btw. NO REGRET! yes i know it was super xnormal.

and i was like quite emo when some ppl said our course is "SENANG"
mcm have a lot of time to lepak. whattt?! we respect ur course man! pls dont say anything if u dont know . -.-' we are struggling very hard too. ntg easy in this world.

so fr sem 2 we learn extra subjects mcm Law,account,mngmnt.
our subjects pun kinda tough. factual and formula dier pun banyak.cases pun.
but still fun.even we hav no chance to do design group punye assigmnts, that dont mean we cant do that.
cuz an idea is belong to each individual. we are free to express our artistic-ness tu :D cuz "art is freedom in which sometimes u cant measure in rational thinking .just do watever u wanna do, create anything u like as long as it looks good and great". - got this from novel. and nice quote!

so here i am.joining non-design. still waiting fr my offer letter from um.
to see wht course is fated fr me. and looking fr QS (Quantity Surveyor) but duno dapat or not.i've heard some positive comments so far from people around and even from the real QS psl this job. mmg now on demand jugak la, the gaji not bad.haha even nt as glamour as architect but still one of the good job.
may Allah bless me and you people =)